I rarely remember my dreams, but on this particular night I had a vivid dream. I dreamed that Ben and I were pregnant. I had woke up one morning and decided to take a pregnancy test… the test came back positive and I ran into our bathroom screaming to Ben “WE’RE PREGNANT!!”. We were both so excited, crying tears of Joy and immediately started trying to decide how we were going to tell our family. We came up with our idea, we had dinner with my parents and told them the good news, then had dinner with Ben’s parents and told them about our new addition. It was just such an exciting dream and felt so REAL.

I woke up at 8:35 on my own (everyone who knows me knows I don’t wake up until 9) and I was devastated. When I woke up I was hit in the face with my reality. The reality that I wasn’t pregnant, the reality that I could have slept for 25 more minutes and enjoyed more of my blissful dream. I just began to cry… well let’s be honest… I threw myself a pity-party. I asked God “WHY? Why would you let me dream that all night and then let me wake up to this reality? That is SO MEAN!”. The absolute moment I said that I heard my phone buzz. Like I said earlier, everyone who knows me knows not to text me before 9 unless it’s important. I looked at my phone and there was a text from my Mom….

  

So of course I immediately felt about 2 inches tall. Why would I question God or get angry at him? He let me have that sweet sweet dream , and rather than waking up grateful I woke up angry. Sometimes I wonder why I have to be so stubborn.

One day that dream is going to become my reality, God promised. I just have to stay seated until that promise is ready to be fulfilled. Easier said than done, but I’m learning 🙂

 

 

 

Ben and I were going to watch a movie in the theater (which we rarely do). We bought our tickets and then got in line for a blue soda and a popcorn! There was a family in front of us a Mom, Dad, and their daughter who looked to be about 4 or 5 years old. The Dad leaned down and asked the little girl “What do you want sweetie? You can get whatever you want tonight!”, the girl looked up with beaming eyes and said “I want a BIG popcorn and a BIG coke!”. Ben looked at me with the “I wish that was us” look  (Because anyone who has been trying to conceive knows… there’s “the look”.). I just whispered to him and said “one day that WILL be us, God promised.”. They got their treats and then it was our turn, we ordered and I turned around to grab some napkins and I saw a movie poster that said “JOY.. COMING SOON”. Little did we know, that there was a movie that was about to be released titled “Joy”.

I hit Ben in the arm and said “Oh my gosh, babe, look at that movie poster.” We both just laughed.

Spoiler Alert: The movie was about a girl with a big dream who worked hard, went through some trials, but in the end came out victorious and reached her goals. Now some of you might say that was just a coincidence but I think God waited to release “Joy” in the year of 2015 because he knew Ben and Kaytlin Robinson would need a little extra Joy during the holiday season.

 

 

 

 

When God told us about Joy we already knew and trusted that one day we would have our little Joy, but little did we know the reminders he was going to give us.

October 24th we went out for Ben’s Birthday dinner in Little Rock.While at dinner we sat beside a family with an adorable little girl. She was so well behaved and her parents were just smitten with her. Almost the entire dinner Ben and I talked about how our life would one day be changed when we became parents, and what it would be like to go out to dinner with our little girl. We talked about how Daddy’s going to teach her to like steak so he will have a steak eating buddy since her mommy doesn’t like steak. We talked about how Mommy’s going to teach her to love chocolate so Daddy will have to buy us dessert every time we go out to dinner. It was just a fun night to dream about the future.

After dinner Ben took me to look at christmas decorations at my favorite store “At Home”. This was the first SIGN of Joy that God had showed to both of us (literally). The first row we went down was FULL of signs that said Joy on them. Big signs, small signs, shinny signs, bright signs… Joy was EVERYWHERE. We both just looked at each other and kind of smirked. The next isle we went down had a ton of Joy ornaments. I looked at Ben and said “Are you seeing a trend here?”. Ben said “I wonder if God is trying to tell us something.”. Long story short, the more we shopped the more Joy we found.

 

We ended up buying a Joy marquee sign and made the theme of our christmas decor JOY. God knew what he was doing when he put the word Joy in all of those At Home designer’s heads. 🙂